<<remembrances>>

ophelia approaches hamlet with remembrances.
he drags her by her neck to emphasize
their shared madness. she arches her back
this dance is familiar and she wouldn’t want
It any other way, she just wishes she could
forget the foreshadowing, this story always
ends with her drowning in a pond, but,
nevertheless, she perseveres–he is the
first and last thought every day, it doesn’t
matter how angry he gets, or how many
times he shrieks about a nunnery, you
find your soul’s counterpart, and you
keep coming back to try and glue the
pieces back together. turquoise and
crystal tears crack open underneath
her Palo Alto heart, something sandlewood
something unseen: that unexplainable
pull towards the vortex of chaos.
hamlet belongs to no one and everyone
at the same time. a skull, some herbs,
an incantation: may we all feel
just a piece of her blind devotion.

playing dead.

you summoned me like a golden record.
copper, silver, peridot.
you shook something open:
not grief, but possibility.
your laughter–words cannot describe
HOW PROFOUND your laughter is.
I only lose myself when I forget the sound of your voice
crying out in the night.
how have we been chasing each other for 24 years?
diagonal nightmares finally intersecting–
it’s not that i thought love would never find me,
it’s just that i didn’t think ANYONE would ever
be able to see the terror i keep inside daily.
when men tell women to smile
it is a special kind of violence.
but you–you–you–
you just laughed…
and came close enough for me to
feel your heart.
i cannot explain it.
beyond mirth.
being knowing.
beyond feeling.
beyond centuries.
how on earth could you have been so certain.
through every single doubt i’ve ever had,
the gravity of your love sustains me.
i am so very strange.
and i trip and bleed and suffer and flush with flame.
i burn. you ground.
this is so far past witchcraft or soul craft.
this is celestial KNOWING.
and even though no combination of words
will ever be enough.
aren’t we so lucky to have forever
tattooed on our souls,
my one and only?

Crimson Ribbons Whisper…

Versailles seemed only a stone’s throw away, the contessa was only now willing to admit her deep admiration for the guillotine—crimson ribbons of same fell from the birch trees—at last—she thought, I no longer need to fear the smoke that attends gunpowder plots.

Outside, the crowd murmured, caught between outrage and awe, their faces masks of civility stitched over simmering unrest. She could feel it—the pulse of the city, its heartbeat uneven, anxious, daring.

Somewhere in the distance, a carriage rattled over cobblestones, a reminder that even the boldest moves must be timed with care.

The contessa adjusted the lace at her wrist, fingers brushing the delicate outline of a secret letter tucked beneath her sleeve. A whisper of wind carried the scent of roasted chestnuts, mingling with the iron tang of anticipation. Here, she thought, courage must meet discretion, or the blade will find its mark.

And yet, in this precarious dance, she sensed a strange kind of freedom: to be bold without falling, to challenge the old order without shattering it entirely. Perhaps this was the delicate art of revolution—and survival.

Shadows stretched long across the courtyard, where whispers and footsteps wove a tapestry of hidden intentions. Every glance, every measured step was a test, a challenge, a provocation. The contessa’s pulse quickened—not with fear, but with the thrill of knowing that even a single decision, a single word, could tip the scales.

This was the hour when courage would be measured, when the bold and the careful collided in a single, electric moment—and she would be ready.

*turning the corners*

It’s 1:21 AM on a Monday and today is the day when I remember everything and of course you knew this day was coming before I did because you are smarter, and handsomener, and taller, and funnier, and wittier, and the thing is–you are still the very fucking shiniest thing–and I have never felt this way before so, as you know, the moment that Rosalind remembers what Orlando has done for her nothing else fucking matters, but how on earth do you live in this world without headphones, dear god, man–the world is so loud and scary without you in it and you are so careful and precise and more and goddamnit, now YOU are the one who holds all the cards, because I am only one person and you are only one person and thank christ for e.e. cummings. AMEN. (and thank you, good morning, goodnight, and I will see you tomorrow, and every day after that, my DEAREST FRIEND.) full. stop.

Détente

The glass walls of their new penthouse gleam like the future itself—untouched, impossible, quietly observing. Below, the city hums: tireless, transactional, a mirror of the world Helena and Mark have just conquered.

Helena stands by the window, her reflection doubled against the skyline. The hem of her navy sheath dress skims her knees, but the silhouette carries authority—a woman who knows precisely how to end a meeting with silence, not words.

Mark enters behind her, loosening his tie, watching her like a man still learning how to breathe in her orbit.

MARK:
We should celebrate. Or confess. I’m not sure which this is.

HELENA:
Celebration implies completion. Confession implies guilt. I prefer continuation.

He laughs softly, the sound low, unsure. It’s been months since Lumon, but some habits of surveillance never quite fade. Even here, the air feels monitored.

HELENA:
You hesitated today.

MARK:
I negotiated.

HELENA:
You second-guessed me.

She steps closer, her heels sharp against the marble. For a moment, the distance between them is only a breath thick. Mark’s pulse betrays him.

MARK:
You love it when I push back.

HELENA:
I love it when you remember who pushed first.

The elevator hums in the background—someone ascending, then changing their mind. The sound dies. The world, briefly, belongs only to them.

Helena moves past him, toward the bar cart. She pours two glasses of something amber and ancient. Her fingers, steady. His, not so much.

HELENA:
To power.

MARK:
To partnership.

They clink, the sound crystalline and precise.

She studies him the way she once studied data points—seeking deviation, pattern, vulnerability.

HELENA:
Do you ever miss it?

MARK:
What?

HELENA:
The control. The illusion of being separate from yourself.

MARK:
Every day.

She smiles faintly, as if he’s given the correct answer.

Lightning flashes beyond the window, slicing through the cityscape. For a heartbeat, their shadows merge on the glass—indistinguishable, inseparable.

Helena takes off her jacket and drapes it across a chair. The movement is elegant, deliberate. Every gesture from her is a kind of choreography: power disguised as poise.

Mark moves closer, but she doesn’t turn. He stops just behind her, close enough to smell the trace of bergamot and ink.

MARK (softly):
If you’re testing me, I’ll fail.

HELENA:
You already did. That’s why you’re still here.

She looks over her shoulder—one glance, equal parts mercy and warning. The city lights flicker in her eyes.

Outside, a siren wails; inside, silence devours sound.

Mark’s hand finds the edge of the windowpane, not her. He’s trembling slightly, whether from restraint or recognition, he can’t tell.

HELENA:
Do you want to know the secret of running an empire, Mark?

MARK:
Tell me.

HELENA:
It isn’t dominance. It’s choreography. Knowing when to let them think they’re leading.

The storm outside deepens, thunder folding into the hum of the city. The skyline blurs.

Mark reaches out then—not to seize, but to steady. His hand meets hers at the glass. Two reflections, one gesture.

Their eyes meet in the window—what they are and what they could be, superimposed.

Helena lets out a long, quiet exhale. For a moment, the line between power and surrender evaporates.

MARK:
You know they’re all still watching us, right?

HELENA:
Let them. That’s half the thrill.

Outside, lightning catches their silhouettes—one figure appearing to dominate the other, though from certain angles, it’s impossible to tell who’s winning.

The city watches. The lights flicker. The game, as always, continues.

Scene: Conference Room 7B

Fluorescent hum.

A cup of cold coffee.

Two figures sit across from each other: MARK S. and HELLY R.

The whiteboard behind them reads only one word: “REINTEGRATION.”

HELLY: You ever feel like the walls know before we do?

MARK: (half-smiles) If the walls know, they’re not talking.

HELLY: Maybe they are. We just don’t listen because we’re busy pretending the coffee doesn’t taste like regret.

MARK: (pause) …You’ve been writing again?!

HELLY: It’s not writing. It’s remembering. Same difference down here.

MARK: (leans forward) Remembering gets people retired.

HELLY: …Or free. Depending on which side of the elevator you’re on.

Silence.

The fluorescent light flickers.

Both glance up instinctively.

MARK: I found something in the records. Your file. It wasn’t redacted. It was erased. Like you were never here.

HELLY: Maybe I wasn’t. Maybe I’m just a shape the program drew around a vacancy.

MARK: That vacancy is fighting back.

HELLY: What if we’re both halves of the same test?

MARK: Then we pass by refusing to play.

They lock eyes—an understanding, not affection.

The lights stop flickering.

Somewhere down the hall, a door unlatches itself.

FIN.

zeitgeist

last night, i dreamt of you bathed in candlelight.

we woke up in barcelona, your heavy head on
my right shoulder: there are no tears anymore

because you have dried them all with your
passionate kisses.

i wake up every day thankful for your presence,
your strength, your bedrock of mindfulness…

……one afternoon, 20 years ago,
I stood underneath
Juliet’s balcony at the Old Globe..

never could I have
ever imagined my
very own Orlando,
my Romeo,
my Petruchio,
my accountant,
my bodyguard,
my director of photography,

and most importantly, forever and always….

my gomez. ❤

cerulean

the timbre of your voice is so specific:
intricate, like a single strand cascading
from a spider’s web. the way you turn
phrases puts Orlando to shame–most
men would sent flowers, instead you
cut down branches, you changed
lightbulbs, you stowed notes behind
garbage cans, you said, “this girl,
I can’t make it too easy for her or
she’ll doubt every move…she
deserves an intricate puzzle…”
and whenever I doubt myself,
I need only look at your handwriting–
for each mile I run, you’ve already
sprinted past me, your mind crackles
across circuits, your parabolas are
more exquisite than the arc of
the longest rainbow–words stop
making sense, there is only the heat
of your hands gently curling around mine.

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